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My name is Charles Smith. I am 26 years old and this is my blog.

I have never kept or maintained a blog so this will be a learning experience for me but a very necessary one.

I created this blog to keep tabs on myself. To keep myself accountable for the life that I want for myself and my children and maybe inspire some of you to do the same.

A little about me.

I currently have a fairly good job in a fortune 500 company. I work full time and I am able to provide a living for my children and allow my wife to be a stay at home mom to our kids. I love my life but something is missing.

Since I was a child I have had two dreams. One was to start a family. I am very happy to say that I have achieved that.

The second dream is to be a writer. I have been a voracious reader since the second grade when I stole a book from my 3rd grade class (I was a terrible kid). I nicked a book called “The Contender by Robert Lipsyte and it changed my life.

It was the first book I had ever completely finished. It immersed me like nothing had ever before and from then on I was in love. I dreamed of replicating that feeling for someone else. Of creating a world or story that someone can sit down and get lost in like I have so many times.

Sadly, I have a very bad habit of pushing this dream off.

I know what you are thinking “Charlie! Why are you pushing this dream off! Go and take that dream, live the shit out of it!”

Well, that is what this blog is all about. You see, I have a profound lack of confidence. In myself, my abilities as a writer and a myriad of other things.

It is hard to take hold of your life and strive to achieve the life you have always dreamed of. It is easy to say to yourself “I have time to be a writer.” Or “right now, I am going to focus on my cubicle job and think about writing in my future”. To push off what you truly want because of fear and that is exactly what it is.

Fear that you won’t be good enough. Fear that no one cares what you have to say. Fear of Failure.

So this is me fighting against those fears. Of looking at myself and saying “stop being a bitch and do it! Live the shit out of the dream, me!”

In the coming weeks, you will see what I am up too. What I am working on and my feelings towards this new shift in mentality with the ultimate goal to quit my job and make a living on what I really love to do.